Not Going To Plan, But I’m Still Planning

Things are not going to plan, but I’m still planning on opening the shop in the future. It won’t be soon…just someday. 😁

I’ve stopped trying to plan so much and just take it day by day. I know what I need to do and I just need to take it slow. The problem is that I want it done now, today, and I get disappointed when things don’t go my way.

I’m still here. I’m still trying.

The biggest problem–which has been the problem since the beginning–is space. The space we had planned to build a shop has become home to other…stuff. It’s our storage and it keeps filling up.

But we’re moving. Very slowly.

I can’t say that it’s all sunshine and rainbows. I’m down. Depression comes and goes. I stress over it all.

But I’ve got something to keep my mind off it most of the day; our garden.

I’ve been outside everyday pulling weeds and making sure animals are staying out of it. Animals are staying away, but I’m having a hard time keeping small pests (aphids, mites, etc.) away. And the disease. All my plants have some kind of fungus or disease, but I know how and I can’t fix it until next year. I just hope I can keep everything away long enough to have some kind of harvest this year. I’m prayin’…

I love gardening, but this year it doesn’t love me. We jumped into planting before reading up on how to amend the soil. So we basically planted in dead soil, but alive with fungus and pests. My fault. But I’ll be ready next year.

If all goes well, I’ll share what harvest we get. But it may be a failure this year. We’ll see.


I’m trying my hand at growing tobacco this year. Got the seeds from my dad, who got it from someone else, who got it from the Cherokees who grows tobacco to give out for ceremonial purposes, as well as to keep our tobacco alive by saving and sharing the seeds for us to grow. I started the seeds indoors and just got them outside. I’m hoping and praying over these suckers!

I’ll share updates as they come in.

Salanoki Kenole! Niyawe!


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